Let It Slide
What do you do when you hear something disturbing or offensive, especially when those things are related to you in some way? I got my fair share of these of late.
I have a choice. I could respond and retaliate or I could just let it slide. I let it slide. I'm going to ignore that part of my psyche that screams,"Silence is an admission of guilt !!!". I don't need to deal with things like this.
There will be none of that school yard you-hit-me-first-now-I-hit-you-later stuff going on here.
I guess I'm going to have to live with the fact that not everyone is going to like me. I mean, as a rule people are allowed to pick and choose who they associate with. No one is good enough for everyone. That's a fact.
I guess I never really came to terms with the idea that I, by simply being myself, can rub others the wrong way. I never really accepted the fact that I can be less than what other people want or look for. It hurts the pride to be considered lacking and to know that to some, I'm not worth it.
To some people, I'm all kinds of bad. I may be too boorish or too opinionated or too lacking in tact and finesse. Maybe I'm too simple or too complicated. Perhaps I'm not artful and articulate enough for some people. And for others, maybe I'm not manly or hard enough. And to yet more people, maybe I'm simply too plain without any obvious charm.
To some people, maybe I'm alright. To others, I may not be so good. Or perhaps I'm just nondescript and ordinary for them.
I am a composite of many things, including flaws and shortcomings and more. I can't expect everyone to tolerate those, can I?
Obviously, I haven't figured how much of myself I need to change before I can be accused of selling out. Such a fine line isn't it? What do you do? Be true and stick to yourself or give face and try to change.
And so, rather than whining about how unfair and unpleasant it is, instead of lashing out and coming out with all sorts of allegations, I'm going to try and accept it like it is instead. Not everyone is going to think I'm an ok person. That's a fact. No need to think of the whys and the how comes. Fuck all!!!
It's life and it's people.
And that's just the way it is.
I have a choice. I could respond and retaliate or I could just let it slide. I let it slide. I'm going to ignore that part of my psyche that screams,"Silence is an admission of guilt !!!". I don't need to deal with things like this.
There will be none of that school yard you-hit-me-first-now-I-hit-you-later stuff going on here.
I guess I'm going to have to live with the fact that not everyone is going to like me. I mean, as a rule people are allowed to pick and choose who they associate with. No one is good enough for everyone. That's a fact.
I guess I never really came to terms with the idea that I, by simply being myself, can rub others the wrong way. I never really accepted the fact that I can be less than what other people want or look for. It hurts the pride to be considered lacking and to know that to some, I'm not worth it.
To some people, I'm all kinds of bad. I may be too boorish or too opinionated or too lacking in tact and finesse. Maybe I'm too simple or too complicated. Perhaps I'm not artful and articulate enough for some people. And for others, maybe I'm not manly or hard enough. And to yet more people, maybe I'm simply too plain without any obvious charm.
To some people, maybe I'm alright. To others, I may not be so good. Or perhaps I'm just nondescript and ordinary for them.
I am a composite of many things, including flaws and shortcomings and more. I can't expect everyone to tolerate those, can I?
Obviously, I haven't figured how much of myself I need to change before I can be accused of selling out. Such a fine line isn't it? What do you do? Be true and stick to yourself or give face and try to change.
And so, rather than whining about how unfair and unpleasant it is, instead of lashing out and coming out with all sorts of allegations, I'm going to try and accept it like it is instead. Not everyone is going to think I'm an ok person. That's a fact. No need to think of the whys and the how comes. Fuck all!!!
It's life and it's people.
And that's just the way it is.
posted by Demented | Wednesday, September 20, 2006
7 Comments:
We love u juz the way u are......
To some people, I'm all kinds of bad. I may be too boorish or too opinionated or too lacking in tact and finesse. Maybe I'm too simple or too complicated. Perhaps I'm not artful and articulate enough for some people. And for others, maybe I'm not manly or hard enough. And to yet more people, maybe I'm simply too plain without any obvious charm.
well, i love all that about you. no need to make yourself more mainstream, and lose the essence of what you are.
ultimately, you are responsible for you own life, how you wish to live it is not their fucking business, if you'll pardon my french.
*hugs*
cheer up david, people like that, you don't need as your friends. true buddies stick by you no matter how bad your behaviour is *points up at jas*
on a lighter note, alex just got featured on my blog. i KNOW he'll love my post heh.
didn't know whether to link you or not, you might not want strangers clicking around in your blog, i read a lotta very personal thoughts here.
cheer up hun, we'll have dinner as soon as i haul ass back to kuching.
bastard united : and i luv u too
chienne : im fine now. thanks for the thought. generally i dont give a flying fuck what people think but i snapped the other day. but im ok now.
haul ass back soon. dinners on you.
no, no. no links please. altho i would be most honoured to be linked to your sanctuary. i rather have my own little private party. i cant handle crowds, you see.
I come here often but this time I feel I need to comment. It is now my turn to give you some sound advise, my friend. As you have advised me before, let me tell you to do just the same - Go out, look towards heaven, stretch your arms and shout "FUCK THE WORLD!".
Martin J
You have a friend in me.
st eve : thanks st eve, whoever you are.
martin J : i remember telling you the same. yeah. it works everytime. thanks mart for visitin.
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